A Lesson Of Patience and Love

Phew..
through another practice..
haha.
nowadays everytime I hear the word practice..
I get scared..
lolz..
Because I believe there is much more they can do and they can do soooo much better than what they're doing now..
but from what I can see..
They just don't understand..
If they understood that all of this is For God.. It is ALL FOR HIS GLORY..
They won't be doing this like it's just a game and only if we're doing recording..
they 'll be all excited happy but they still don't do well..
This is what I call SELFISH.
I don't mean to say that.. but what else can I call this kind of act?
they joke around fool around and don't do well.. I'm all heartbroken .. wasting of time asking them to shut up and listen.. and they get mad at me?
What Can I do about this?
Let's not practice.. ain't that good?
aren't you happy now?
I'm so glad that I hold it down..and I thank god for not letting me shout n scream!
for my mind was exploding when they're all in noises..
Meanwhile , we still have one more fresh new scene to go.. but the first 4 is still a piece of CRAP when it is suppose to be an art filled with god's miracle ..
It's as if I'm on top of a hill that is so steep that I've got to grip tightly or not I'll fall..
everyone asked me to give up on the last scene.. give up on them..
I'm like no.. I trusted them.. I believed that they cud do so well..
and I am not going to doubt it.. it's not my decision to give up.. but god's decision..
only he can make me give up on them..
this is how things are now..
But I thank god..
why? Because at least he gave me these people..
Because without them.. there won't be this Musical..
and there will be no costume no nothing..
without them.. we will not be able to give anything to him after all his blessings.
I thank god for I can see full commitments from Jun Lv.. for he came from such a long distance for practices.. amazing .. god bless him..
n I thank god for giving me Eric Yan Yin Sing and Yee Kin .. they came nearly every practice..
I give praise to the lord for he have given me Mei Si , Sharon, SJ when I needed them the most..
I sing Hallelujah when god gave me Si Haw , SY and Rocky when I thought they couldn't help..
last but not least ..
I dance for he has given me Worm and Edgar to add up my faith..
In the end. I pray lord.. bless them all.. even when they didn't do well at all..
they haven't gave all their best.. as every1 can see..
they may be selfish when it comes to themselves..
but lord.. we are human..
Humans are weak..
Lord please show mercy and Be with us..
Don't give up on me..
lord , let me see ,let me see that you're smilling back at me..
Praise the Lord..
Lord, You Are My Shepherd.. From now towards the end of the world..
Hallelujah..
I end my blog today with a verse from the bible..
Song of Solomon 8:6
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.